I am singing a solo in my drama club Sunday night, in front of the whole church(which I have been going to for maybe about seven months). I entered the drama club, knowing full-well that I would have to perform infront of people, and also knowing full-well that I have...major stage fright. Yeah. Go me. I'm singing 'Who Is This Child?', which is a very pretty song, and I really like it. Originally, I was going to be singing 'What Child Is This?', but I totally bombed it on the 'audition' because I was so nervous. I've noticed that, after practicing two or three times in front of the drama club, I've gotten slightly more calm about singing in front of them. But I'm still so nervous that my throat tightens and my voice doesn't sound too good. No matter how much I try to mentally calm myself, I get so freaked out when I'm standing(infront of an EMPTY ROOM. The only people there were the soundtech guys)there, that I just find it hard to get my voice how it is when I'm standing by the piano, singing it while my piano-buddy plays. So, I have to memorize the song and sing it enough in two days, so that I can sing Sunday night without fear. Riiight...good luck with that. Even thinking about it gets me nervous. So that's my biggest anxiety right now. Singing on Sunday night.

Work. In the paper form, with those evil little equations on them. It has been very stressful, and my work has been suffering ever since the beginning. I've never been good at it. But I managed to bring it up barely, once or twice, but it always went back down. So I brought it up again, more than I had before, by only getting one wrong question on the entire test. So, needless to say I was thrilled. Weelll...someone wasn't. An important someone didn't even give a 'keep up the good work!' or anything, instead saying that it needed to come up even more so. Gee, thanks. Love you too. So, I was majorly stressing about that. How come, no matter the fact that I'm doing my best and trying my hardest, this person is never satisfied? I understand I need to have the best score that I can get, but I am trying my very hardest to get it up. I just have a writing brain, not a mathematical brain. So yes. Fun stuff. Stress, feeling stupid and useless, all that good stuff.

Christmas is only seven days away. Seriously. I went half and half with my piano buddy for one gift, managed to get another, but I still have like six gifts left to buy. And no car. Yeah, that's right. No car. Which means, no going places. So until I can hitch a ride to the nearest Wal-Mart, I'm screwed present-wise. Though on the upside...I might be going to the Candlelight Service on Christmas Eve at my old church! And relatives are coming over Christmas Day, then there's the huge annual family Christmas party the day after! It's going to be exciting, and different, but still definitely fun! Come on, Christmas! Get here already!!